So Alone

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I have bad news guys..i suppose

1- My dad has been in and out of the hospital..when i heard i didn`t know how to react, so i ran to my room and cried for a while. I know i hate him and god knows i dont want to say this but...he is my father... Found all this out yesterday

2- I was crying in my room about 20 min ago and my mom comes in, i tell her im upset because i feel as if the family doesnt want me. And she just told me to grow up and she left....I just...I feel so unloved, unwanted, insecure, everything...I am yet again to the point of suicidal thoughts again, I know im scared of certain things, but OD`ing...thats my final suicide option. Amanda don`t you dare flip out on me when we get back to school, it won`t help and i know you`ll be angry. I don`t want ANYONE angry OK!?

3- I have been thinking of my old friend Katrina and my other friend Angel
History between me and Katrina:
Known each other since i was in the 4th grade, her 5th
Never stayed at the same school together :C
Played in the Christmas March back when i was in 7th Grade, her 8th (Also with VU :D )

Angel
God he is a handsom man...Lazy tho xD
Met probably 4-5 years ago
He is 19 and i am 14 atm
He likes me, i use to
He has a shitty past, worse than mine but he is doing so much better...except for the fact that i may never see him again...I don`t remember the details...
Always hung out until he got a job last year
Again, i may never see him again..im not ever seeing my father so...yeah
And Justin, and Brian, and Nasco....or the little ones...I taught them not to steal...Tho i steal...I don`t want them to grow up to be like me....Those kids need better mothers....She doesn`t care what they do..
And Eddie....Imma miss you little man....Tho i don`t like ur nickname you gave yourself!!! D:< ITS NOT COOL especially for a 10 YEAR OLD!! |:<

So there you have it...
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thepinguins's avatar
Don't.
Kill.
Yourself.
I'm Warning You...