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I have bad news guys..i suppose
1- My dad has been in and out of the hospital..when i heard i didn`t know how to react, so i ran to my room and cried for a while. I know i hate him and god knows i dont want to say this but...he is my father... Found all this out yesterday
2- I was crying in my room about 20 min ago and my mom comes in, i tell her im upset because i feel as if the family doesnt want me. And she just told me to grow up and she left....I just...I feel so unloved, unwanted, insecure, everything...I am yet again to the point of suicidal thoughts again, I know im scared of certain things, but OD`ing...thats my final suicide option. Amanda don`t you dare flip out on me when we get back to school, it won`t help and i know you`ll be angry. I don`t want ANYONE angry OK!?
3- I have been thinking of my old friend Katrina and my other friend Angel
History between me and Katrina:
Known each other since i was in the 4th grade, her 5th
Never stayed at the same school together :C
Played in the Christmas March back when i was in 7th Grade, her 8th (Also with VU )
Angel
God he is a handsom man...Lazy tho xD
Met probably 4-5 years ago
He is 19 and i am 14 atm
He likes me, i use to
He has a shitty past, worse than mine but he is doing so much better...except for the fact that i may never see him again...I don`t remember the details...
Always hung out until he got a job last year
Again, i may never see him again..im not ever seeing my father so...yeah
And Justin, and Brian, and Nasco....or the little ones...I taught them not to steal...Tho i steal...I don`t want them to grow up to be like me....Those kids need better mothers....She doesn`t care what they do..
And Eddie....Imma miss you little man....Tho i don`t like ur nickname you gave yourself!!! D:< ITS NOT COOL especially for a 10 YEAR OLD!! |:<
So there you have it...
1- My dad has been in and out of the hospital..when i heard i didn`t know how to react, so i ran to my room and cried for a while. I know i hate him and god knows i dont want to say this but...he is my father... Found all this out yesterday
2- I was crying in my room about 20 min ago and my mom comes in, i tell her im upset because i feel as if the family doesnt want me. And she just told me to grow up and she left....I just...I feel so unloved, unwanted, insecure, everything...I am yet again to the point of suicidal thoughts again, I know im scared of certain things, but OD`ing...thats my final suicide option. Amanda don`t you dare flip out on me when we get back to school, it won`t help and i know you`ll be angry. I don`t want ANYONE angry OK!?
3- I have been thinking of my old friend Katrina and my other friend Angel
History between me and Katrina:
Known each other since i was in the 4th grade, her 5th
Never stayed at the same school together :C
Played in the Christmas March back when i was in 7th Grade, her 8th (Also with VU )
Angel
God he is a handsom man...Lazy tho xD
Met probably 4-5 years ago
He is 19 and i am 14 atm
He likes me, i use to
He has a shitty past, worse than mine but he is doing so much better...except for the fact that i may never see him again...I don`t remember the details...
Always hung out until he got a job last year
Again, i may never see him again..im not ever seeing my father so...yeah
And Justin, and Brian, and Nasco....or the little ones...I taught them not to steal...Tho i steal...I don`t want them to grow up to be like me....Those kids need better mothers....She doesn`t care what they do..
And Eddie....Imma miss you little man....Tho i don`t like ur nickname you gave yourself!!! D:< ITS NOT COOL especially for a 10 YEAR OLD!! |:<
So there you have it...
Today/Tonight
holy crap i think i died or something. Im laughing so hard and smiling so much my cheeks are twitching...see what happens when you get NO SLEEP and hang out with !MythicalCreature03 (https://www.deviantart.com/mythicalcreature03) and :iconscarletpelt: xD I was like WTF facing them every second xD
right now i am terrified by Manda....i WTF faced her more than anyone xD Sorry mandas! Still love ya :iconicameplz:
anyways we watched hetalia season 4, watched a crap ton of youtube (I am not a youtube person either...), and i was drawing lol
I go to my friend nicoles birthday party in....lets see....its 4:12 am...so im 9 hours i go to my friends party! ^^ Yay!
Alright well im here...i t
PRUSSIA FANS ALL OVER THE WORLD
ALL YOU PRUSSIA FANS WATCH THESE 2 VIDEOS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature=endscreen&NR=1&v=3YF7vMOJYio
AND
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JdgSIn5G3h8
If anyone has any hetalia videos they think i would like to see please show me T^ T
PRUSSIA, RUSSIA, GERMANY, ITALY, ROMANO, SPAIN, AUSTRIA, HUNGARY, JAPAN, SWEEDEN, GREECE, AND MORE ARE ALL MY FAVES T^ T (basically all of them but still...)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HqeJ1EOipnE
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Well im going through ALL MY MESSAGES! I had some from February...T^ T i feel so terrible...
Also im going to delete all the journals because i cant read 7,018 T^ T it piles up quick on me...
So yeah... ^^""
Oh also yesterday i was listening to my brothers ipod and found AMAZING bands!
A Day To Remember
Billy Talent
The Darkness
DJ Shadow (he told me that the album he has is actually made of songs and movies http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DJ_Shadow read the first small paragraph! :D His songs are pretty badass!)
Death Cab For Cutie ^^
Thats it for now ^^ I was daydreaming while listening to this song (currently listening to) All these
Oh noes xD
I think i got my friend a new fave band possibly
ICP and hopefully Korn ^^ There pretty awesome
Anyways im about to go to the mall and get new Invaderzim headphones :D It also comes with a plug so 2 people can listen to it! AND it comes with 2 headsets xD AMAZING
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